To the person who makes my heart beat,
I still wonder to this day what I did to deserve someone so grand like you.
We have a love that nobody can destroy. having you is something that I will
forever be grateful of. I will thank the universe forever for giving me you.
you are what gives me life. who gives me meaning. who never fails to make me smile.
my favorite person, place, and feeling. words will never be enough to express how much
I love you. I love you more than words could ever describe. you're the sweetest person
I have ever know. the most amazing person I have ever laid eyes upon. you
are all that I want. I think that you are perfect for me. It warms me knowing that you love me.
I love running my fingers through your hair and telling you that I love you more than anything.
I will never get tired of reassuring and saying my I love you's to you. you matter to me more than
anything has ever mattered to me. I will gladly break my heart for you, I will do anything just to
see a smile in your face. your smile grows flowers within me. while your touch is enough to warm
what's cold inside me. I am really grateful to have you in my life. you have always been what I asked for
and I just wish this moment will never end. I hope we will both stay inlove with eachother unconditionally.
I promise to love you, and only you. I can't escape the way I love you, It's like I was meant to
love you. and I want to love you, I want to take care of you. I want to be the one who will be there for
you, each and everytime. I have a million of reasons why I want you, and if I try to write them down, I'd
fall asleep. I tell the moon and the stars and the trees and also the universe all about you. you are the
world to me.
Chen is the most charming, pretty, funny, silly, just every good thing in life in one. She never fails to make me laugh.
She doesn't even have to try. She makes me smile whenever I look at her. She makes me feel things that no one has ever made me feel.
She's just like heaven. as usual, me a self destructive borderline girlfriend, destroy her unintentionally. I feel terrible
whenever I make her upset. I think I deserve every vengeance she does in order to teach me a lesson. I hate how much I hurt her
without me knowing. I wish I had the power of understanding her and knowing what to say to her always.
being in a relationship with chen, is the dream I never thought would come true. She treats me as if I'm special. She made me feel LOVE
that I never had felt towards anyone else. I always felt like an option, just someone everyone who wants to leave but is just
planning an excuse to do so. Our relationship was my first actual healthy relationship. She's like my first ever real girlfriend.
The first time I met Chen, I never would've thought she would EVER be mine. She looked way out of my league. sometimes I still think
that way even though we are now together, I never really think someone as grand as her, should be dealing with a freak who doesn't even
who they are. I never think I deserve any thing good, especially her.
But when the time came, the time when Chen messaged me. She told me she liked me. My heart couldn't be more confused and inlove in the same time.
Confused that why in the world would she find me attractive? Why would she like me. And Inlove, well I always was, I am just coward who is afraid
of confessing what I actually feel, to not look weak or fragile. I just want to look cool about everything, it's the only thing that
gives me confident. I do a shit ton of reckless things just to get the validation from myself that I am, important. When she messaged me,
I was in complete awe, especially by the time I figured out, it was Chen, Chenish fucking Alvior. The most stunning person a human world could ever have.
I couldn't stop thinking about her confession the whole entire day. even tho she specifically told me not too share her confession to others,
I told people who I was close to with that time, I told them with pride. I never thought she would like me. I was shocked, I couldn't belive it
I felt confident because of her.
I didn't want to lose her. especially knowing how much effort she just did, with confessing. so I told her to be my girlfriend, just
a day after. that was how scared I was to lose her. I couldn't fail my dreams now. so inshort, I just dated the hottest chick ever.
and I couldn't believe she was inlove with me.
before I met her, my life was a shithole. no one made me feel special. I always felt like an option. I'm always the one who gives
maximum effort again and again, just to know, they want me to leave them alone and they want nothing to do with me. which made me the most
reckless person, I planned on breaking people hearts the way my heart was broken too. I never thought love could ever happen to me due to past
betraying I went through. I was completely devastated. but Chen, Chen changed me. She taught me how to love, She taught me and reminded me that
I will always be loved if not by anybody, then by her. She made me realize 2 lovers can love equally, and not every relationship is onesided.
She made me cry out of joy. She's my greatest happiness and pain. She's all I feel, all i see, and all i need.
Day by day I fix myself, to be better for her. for her to think to herself that I'm worth it. It's been a year now, and I still
can't believe she's mine. I like her so much that I would do anything.just to keep her and to have her by myself always.
It's okay if she hurts me. I love her, and losing her would
be the most painful thing that I will ever experience.
I will promise to myself and to her, that the day that I won't be with her, will be the day
that I will perish.